10 Mommy Confessions

1. If I know with 100% certainty nobody is going to see the girls' socks I tend to let them wear ones that don't match at all.

2. If I'm on the phone with an old friend trying to catch up during normal daytime hours I bribe the girls with cookies. Hey, if there is food in their mouth they can't be yelling for me.

3. I have let the girls over take my sleeping. I can not remember the last time I slept by Anthony all night, not to mention sleep alone in our bed. It is a monster I have created and one that I am not ready to defeat.

4. On most days the girls are dressed better then I am. Pigtails, tights, and dresses for them, running shoes and yoga pants for me.

5. I spend money on professional pictures. Lots of money. None of those pictures are displayed. And I usually like my own pictures better. But I still get them done, just to have.

6. I have been known to say "I'm about ready to sell my kids on e-bay, free shipping."

7. I love my life as a mom but I miss my old self. The one who had as much time as she needed for herself and the one who actually took time to really take care of herself.

8. I do not go shopping without coming home with something for the girls. This is not intentional, just a fact.

9. I feel a big sense of accomplishment when someone compliments me on the behavior of my kids. Lucky for us, they put on a good show in front of people.

10. I don't want my babies to grow up. I am happy with them being little. I laugh everyday with them, I learn everyday with them, and I am challenged everyday by them. I don't want to lose this happiness.

It's a New Start

Here we go again, I'm going to blog. Blogging has been like a new year's resolution for me. I try, I stick with it for a few months, and then I fail. But this time I want to stick it out. I have motivation this time, I have been inspired. Out of the blue a friend of mine mentioned that she had checked out my blog and thought it was cool. Cool? My half-ass blog was cool? I was so surprised but so very flattered. That was a few weeks ago and now that comment has been haunting me. I have a reader, I officially have a reader and she commented. Not here but on facebook, I'm totally counting that! So now that I know someone out there thinks me and my blog are cool, I've got to uphold that image. And so I'm back!

Now that I am back I am remodeling around here. All of my previous attempts at blogging can be found at www.twentyfourhourmama.blogspot.com I can't bare to let all my old post and yet I can't handle them sticking around here. I get anxiety knowing that I have been inconsistent with this blog, and if I pick up where I left off there will be a big gap in the timeline. Do I pretend I wrote stuff and post date them? Or do I write a long catch up blog? Both don't seem right, it feels like cheating. I know, I'm weird like that, anxiety over a blog that only one person reads? And maybe that was the one time? Anyways, I'm starting new, and secretly holding onto the old.